Trying to calm a panic attack triggered by yelling and smashing enough to remember a new password but getting locked out instead. Heart is now racing. Also instant nausea and headache at pc9. :(((
See also this post on my tumblr (copied here for completeness):
When women scream you wonder what’s wrong with them. When men yell you get afraid about what they’re going to do.
'A girl in my creative writing class said this in response to a story we read about witnessing intimate partner violence and it really fucked with my head because I’ve never, ever, ever, thought of it that way.' (via firelorddahlia)
For me, anyway, this is incredibly true, and it’s why I don’t cope with raised voices well. It really upsets me, and I don’t think most men understand that, even if they say they do. I’m not talking about a startle response that gives me a momentary jolt of adrenaline, I’m talking about it triggering a body-wide fight-or-flight response that sometimes leaves me feeling like I’m going to puke. (And it also makes me really, really angry, reflexively, and that’s a really gross combination.)